lea's lessons - feeding the storm

1. spending all day having fun with lea
2. jeff's coming home tomorrow
3. netflix
4. time to rest today
5. not making dinner

nugget: i'm learning to remove myself more and make room for the rest of the world in my thoughts. it makes me much happier, i find.

making lea laugh

1. the time i spent with lea today at the park. watching her face when she took her first ride by herself on the slide.
   
2. learning to take myself less seriously.
   
3. time alone
4. excitement of seeing a concert this friday
5. jeff coming home wed.
   

frozen yogurt

1. my parents visit ending on a good note
2. knowing lea so well that i know how to make her truly happy
   
3. dancing and singing with lea
4. knowing jeff is doing OK on his business trip
5. finding something i thought we lost, just in time

nuuget: protecting yourself doesn't require controlling the situation, it actually requires you to let go. let go of what you want or expect and just trust yourself and your abilities. this in turn will allow you to understand that you can trust in others, and then go full circle.

1. good, good friends
2. when jeff comes home
3. painting - kristen i'll have a sneak peek later today
4. being up front even when my family isn't
5. feeling strong
6. anticipation of seeing some friends today at playgroup - it's my solace during the parental visit

nugget: changing takes practice.

1. getting through day 2 of my parents visit and having a sense of humor about it all (still day two folks)
2. running into allie at new leaf and sarah at peets today during my time away to run errands
3. getting sleep
4. peanut butter brownies
5. sunny warm day

nugget: trying to understand my parents is exhausting and unnecessary and something i had always done in the past in an effort to better understand myself. i realize now that i don't need to understand them, i know who i am. my state of mind or belief system no longer hinges on theirs. ahhhhhhhhhhh. feels good. this doesn't mean that the relationship is easy. i just feel like i can take a step back more and see where the "hooks" are and have learned how to avoid them.

silence

1. having a few hours tonight all to myself....quiet home
2. knowing that jeff is coming home
   
3. aveda "shampure" candles
4. warm, cozy bed
5. the way lea hikes
   

1. getting our house more in order
2. finding a "learning tower" for $60 second hand, and in perfect condition
3. sharing some hilarious moments with jeff
4. anticipation of our camping trip this weekend
5. finding out lea is healthy and growing perfectly well after her 18 mo check up
6. earth's best organic frozen mini waffles