2011

1. writing again and discovering old posts that help me see who i was and will be once i return to sleeping
2. knowing this hard time is a stage in our lives - a stage to be treasured for the good and forgotten for the bad
3. anne lamott
4. seeing amy today and being reminded of how much i love talking with her knowing i can be totally, unapologetically honest
5. how resilient lea is

1. getting some sleep last night for the first time this week. (lea has a croup cough)
2. our weekend in monterey visiting the aquarium (even though it's where she probably caught the croup)
   
3. the bottomless love jeff and i have for each other and our family
4. strong and sound support from other moms in the community
5. lea's excitement for anything under the sea
6. all the nesting projects i have in the works and the sewing class i will be taking soon to allow time to actually complete some
   

1. when jeff can work from home
2. being able to talk honestly about my feeling, fears, worries
3. two napping cats next to me now
4. knitting again inspired by the impending arrival of our new cousin and replacing one of lea's scarfs that was ruined in the laundry last week :(
5. planning a simple vacation
   
6. feeling a bit better today
   

1. falling in love with my husband over and over again
2. having one of the best birthdays ever and feeling so happy in my life
3. my new knitting project for lea; striped scarf
4. our bed and cozy it feels getting in
   
5. a peaceful visit with jeff's aunt and uncle
6. wonderful conversation with my mom and reflecting on how far we've come
   
7. the warm, beautiful day today allowing lea and i to take a hike in t-shirts
8. my first haircut in 15 months!!
   

1. an amazing sunday in the city with jeff and lea having an impromtu picnic in the park
2. getting a hamburger craving and going with lea to have a late lunch to satisfy my craving and also steal a walk on the bay
3. whenever lea gets long naps
4. fit's body flow class and how much i crave it despite how my body is changing
5. finding a few creative projects to work on throughout the day

Yknow, a list doesn't work today. Today as I sit and read while Lea takes a monster nap I realize (again for the umpteenth time) that I truly have everything I have ever dreamed of. I have an amazing, loving, intuitive, and interesting husband who loves me unconditionally. I am mother to a breathtaking young lady who I marvel at with both her love for life and ability to make things right all around her. I have a baby boy on the way. I live by the ocean and an expanse of hills and eucalyptus trees. I have an amazing group of friends who have saved me in more ways than i understand yet. I've repaired things with my mother so that we can talk as honest as is possible. And finally I am at peace with the fact that I come with flaws and have faith that if they don't kill me they will just help me relate and continue to give me perspective no matter what's coming our way. I have my dreams. Right here, right now.

1. revisiting one of my favorite artists' sites (brian andreas) and finding new inspiration, connection with myself, and the knowledge that even though i have changed so much and strayed a bit here and there, i have stayed true to my core
2. sunny mornings
3. seeing friends at FIT
4. lea's dressing style developing
5. good, good, good days where i have patience and energy
6. making plans to see friends and family
7. finding new and creative ways to communicate with jeff
8. my ever-growing bond with lea
9. the excitement i have for this growing baby in my growing belly
10. finding a number of sites online that inspire me and sing to my sense of style, design, philosophy, and playfulness as a parent
11. knowing the rain will bring more green
12. my new cookbook: the french laundry, and how much i've already learned just by browsing through the initial pages
13. the fact that i'm back to cooking, baking, and creating in the kitchen. i've missed it so! (so has my family)

nugget: this is from said artist in #1. his stories always hit my heartstrings louder each living year

No Regret
"I sometimes wake in the early morning & listen to the soft breathing of my children & I think to myself, this is one thing I will never regret & I carry that quiet with me all day long."

with regards to tara's post about making intentions in sync with the cycle of the moon.....
i have decided that starting this week and for this cycle i will be focusing on cleansing, filtering, and spring cleaning my home. there are so many projects i want to work on, but before doing so i want to clear out the old, unwanted, in-the-way clutter and crap and start fresh. so, this is my intention, promise, focus, whatever for this cycle. the first place i will tackle is my closet! arg!!!

thanks for the inspiration and idea tara!