health

1. finding a frame that will work for lea's eyes today
2. getting some extra time with jeff while we spent the morning at the doctors
3. cooking with lea by my side
4. a few hours at night to drift into my own world
5. when the dishes have been done, the dinner has been made, and i'm in my jams

nugget: letting go is harder than hanging on, but so much easier in the long run

routine

1. my new favorite hike with lea and how healthy and happy it makes me feel
2. taking a nap with jeff while lea slept
3. the sounds that come out of the bathroom while jeff gives lea a bath
4. our new tradition "sushi sunday"
5. our beautiful town

1. mornings with lea and jeff
2. cuddling with lea on the couch
3. learning more about how to help lea's eye develop and feeling more empowered today. less helpless.
4. jeff's efforts in every way imaginable
5. seeing a good friend yesterday

homemade

1. my first batch of homemade bread...oh the many ideas for all the batches to come
2. lea's fever breaking fairly quickly
3. sunshine
4. jeff getting groceries tonight
5. having fun with lea despite all the crying, battling sleep, and feeling crappy
   

ani

1. seeing ani last night....so good.
   
2. spending all day with my two favorite people today
3. jeff spending the morning and early afternoon with lea and i - have some alone time with jeff in the afternoon, reconnecting
4. jeff bringing me an enormous arrangement of flowers, each of which were individually chosen for me. so amazingly beautiful and sweet
5. knowing that i'm on the right track in life, and feeling empowered by that fact, despite the speed bumps along the way

lea's lessons - feeding the storm

1. spending all day having fun with lea
2. jeff's coming home tomorrow
3. netflix
4. time to rest today
5. not making dinner

nugget: i'm learning to remove myself more and make room for the rest of the world in my thoughts. it makes me much happier, i find.

making lea laugh

1. the time i spent with lea today at the park. watching her face when she took her first ride by herself on the slide.
   
2. learning to take myself less seriously.
   
3. time alone
4. excitement of seeing a concert this friday
5. jeff coming home wed.
   

frozen yogurt

1. my parents visit ending on a good note
2. knowing lea so well that i know how to make her truly happy
   
3. dancing and singing with lea
4. knowing jeff is doing OK on his business trip
5. finding something i thought we lost, just in time

nuuget: protecting yourself doesn't require controlling the situation, it actually requires you to let go. let go of what you want or expect and just trust yourself and your abilities. this in turn will allow you to understand that you can trust in others, and then go full circle.

1. good, good friends
2. when jeff comes home
3. painting - kristen i'll have a sneak peek later today
4. being up front even when my family isn't
5. feeling strong
6. anticipation of seeing some friends today at playgroup - it's my solace during the parental visit

nugget: changing takes practice.

1. getting through day 2 of my parents visit and having a sense of humor about it all (still day two folks)
2. running into allie at new leaf and sarah at peets today during my time away to run errands
3. getting sleep
4. peanut butter brownies
5. sunny warm day

nugget: trying to understand my parents is exhausting and unnecessary and something i had always done in the past in an effort to better understand myself. i realize now that i don't need to understand them, i know who i am. my state of mind or belief system no longer hinges on theirs. ahhhhhhhhhhh. feels good. this doesn't mean that the relationship is easy. i just feel like i can take a step back more and see where the "hooks" are and have learned how to avoid them.

silence

1. having a few hours tonight all to myself....quiet home
2. knowing that jeff is coming home
   
3. aveda "shampure" candles
4. warm, cozy bed
5. the way lea hikes
   

1. getting our house more in order
2. finding a "learning tower" for $60 second hand, and in perfect condition
3. sharing some hilarious moments with jeff
4. anticipation of our camping trip this weekend
5. finding out lea is healthy and growing perfectly well after her 18 mo check up
6. earth's best organic frozen mini waffles